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[01 Jul 2009|08:39pm] |
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My gray kitty is starting to turn brown in patches. I am NOT amused!
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[18 Jun 2009|09:45pm] |
Fuck this.
I'm tired. I'm lonely. I ache from the exercise I did yesterday. I can't seem to lose any of this fucking weight. I hate my job. My life is so fucking boring.
Not even the prospect of a new job isn't cheering me up because I'm afraid I'll get there and I won't be good or fast enough. It doesn't help that when I called my mom to tell me about it today, she told me about all the people at home who need their dogs done or the new grooming shop that's going in right next to her house.
oh yes, and to add, I feel stuck in an industry that I used to love and now I just feel trapped in. I like grooming, I do, but the thought of making a career out of it makes me depressed for reasons I don't want to think about. And yet, I don't know what else I'd do. I don't know how to do anything else. And that's scary too.
If I wasn't so tired I think I'd cry. It's still a possibility. I just want something really fucking good to happen. Something I can't get nervous about or not be too tired to care about. Because right now, it's really hard to care about much of anything.
/whining yes but dammit, I needed to do it somewhere or I was going to lose what little I had to eat tonight from just balled up nerves. And I'm in one of those moods where I don't want to 'bother' anyone. You know the ones.
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[10 Jun 2009|08:43pm] |
So, now that we are doing dogs from start to finish in class, I'm taking before and after shots. I unloaded my camera today and thought I would share! Yes, I am going to school for this XD It makes total sense if you know me.
But first, Herman helped my dad make my patio garden last weekend. Help, as in, crawl in the grass clippings but you know, whose really counting? XD
( Maleluna from Wednesday, June 1st )
( Peaches from Friday, June 3rd )
( Gryphon from Friday, June 3rd )
I forgot my camera on Monday XD
( Teek from Wednesday, June 10th )
( Sasha from Wednesday, June 10th )
And finally...( Bloopers )
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[04 May 2009|09:39pm] |
wtf, why not? It's better then thinking about work tomorrow with PSYCHO PEOPLE!
Comment with one (or several) of your pups and whichever of mine and I'll let you know what's been going on between them recently from my end. Also, if there's anything you want to know about my pups in general - what they've been up to, their plans, their motivation behind doing X or how they feel about Y - ask away.
Any of the herd. Alex, Tommy, Fiyero, Kim, Xander, Lex, Cassie and Adam. Plus any past or future.
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[29 Apr 2009|10:38pm] |
EEEEEEEEEE!
THIS LOLTIGER IS FROM THE NATIONAL ZOO! IN DC!!!!
I'm homesick. And drunk. Shut up.
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[17 Apr 2009|10:01pm] |
It's Friday night. This means is meme time apparently as I try not to cry at the thought of work tomorrow. Yeah that awesome job I gave up Disney for? Kind sucks major elephant balls. Major. Elephant. Balls. Only till November dude, this it's back to Disney. I hope.
001. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
002. I will respond by asking you ANY five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature. Or not so creepy/personal.
003. You WILL update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
004. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
005. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
006: NEW RULE. If you feel like doing it for your RP characters instead, let me know and I will so ask.
( Questions, questions, whose got the questions? )
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[24 Mar 2009|05:35pm] |
So...the 586 screen caps of the DVD that came with my Awake CD, from which these come from, will be posted later. Someone needed to be cheered up last night but I didn't quite finish. So here they are now 266 icons of Josh goodness.
( 1-100 )
( 101-200 )
( 201-266 )
Again, take, share, credit is nice.
Now I need a shower. First day of work was interesting but I think things will work out, at least untill I finish grooming school anyway.
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[19 Mar 2009|08:21am] |
I hate quitting things. I swam for 10 years even though I hated it for most of it. I don't like change.
But then I guess barely two weeks isn't a change because who FINALLY isn't an employee of the Walt Disney World Resort and can't rehire for another 6 months? THAT'S RIGHT! ME!
So yes, I now go to grooming school three days a week and have a job at a small but awesome vet clinic the other three to four. With about the same hours everyday that I can so handle. And it pays more then Disney. It's kind of sad that I'd rather clean dog poop then serve food to tourists but for one thing? The cleaning dog poop is air conditioned XD
Okay life. I have school and I have a job. You can chill out now okay? OKAY?
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[13 Mar 2009|03:16pm] |
Someone tell me what about this webcomic that makes me happy.
In other words, I stayed home today. After this last week, I was just not in a good mental space today. So I went back to bed with my puppy dammit.
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[13 Mar 2009|12:34am] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) moonlight69 sent me this link and mentioned wanting icons. I was already sorting though caps to make more Josh icons and since working with already selected pics is SO MUCH easier, I went and cropped them. The crotch shot was a TOTAL ACCIDENT I SWEAR. I blame the Scooby.
So yes, much James Marsters under the cut.
( 1-35 )
So yes. My life got more complicated today. More this weekend, or at least Tuesday.
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[11 Mar 2009|09:06pm] |
The drama that is my life continues!
WHEN IT FUCKING RAINS IT FUCKING POURS IS THE THEME OF THE NIGHT!
Two weeks ago, I looked into grooming school because I was sick of being unemployed and doing nothing. Some how, I pull admissions out of my ass and start class that next Monday. The day after I start class, Disney calls with a part time job. It's outdoor foods, which kind of sucks but omg a job! Finally!
So yeah, today I went outside with a friend for her smoke break and checked the messages on my phone. I had a voice mail from an unfamiliar number. I check it. It's the vet I interviewed with like a month ago finally offering me a job. I wanted that job SO FUCKING BAD but gave up since he said they would fill it in two weeks and that was come on gone. The DAY AFTER my first orientation at Disney.
*headdesk* *repeatedly* So yeah. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I'm going to call the vet tomorrow and see what's up. Because I really don't want to give up school or Disney, since I'm already committed to both, but dammit, I wanted that job.
*sighs* What the hell universe? Do you really like fucking with me so much? I mean, I realize I shouldn't be so worked up about good news, but fucking dammit, this isn't fair!
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[07 Mar 2009|12:08am] |
I have had a very weird day. Basically...culture shock after helping a grooming school class mate with a paper for two hours that I could have easily written better in high school. And while she took it very well while asking me for spelling and wording help, I was weirded out. She even called me smart to her dad. She's 23! She's MY AGE! I have never thought of myself as smart or even that literate, even with my degree from a good university. But the difference between Virginia and Florida schools and society was very clear. And even all of my non college going friends are very literate so it just got to me quite a bit. I'm in a very different world down here.
I needed a bottle of wine to settle my nerves about this. It /really/ weirded me out.
And now I'm watching Ocean's 12 with my dreamsofstars so all is well with the world again. Though my bratty Luthor can really stop staring at Frenchie's ass. It's bugging Basher and Linus. Though I do think Frenchie vs Little Luthor would be a thing of beauty, all intellect and wiry beauty.
I really don't need another bottle but damn it's tempting.
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[05 Mar 2009|11:27pm] |
I blame dreamsofstars and meemsers for this.
Give me a character of mine (I'll take past, current, and original characters) and I'll answer the following questions:
01.) Full name?
02.) Best friend?
03.) Sexuality?
04.) Favorite color?
05.) Relationship status?
06.) Ideal mate?
07.) Turn-ons?
08.) Last sexual experience?
09.) Favorite food?
10.) Crushes?
11.) Favorite music?
12.) Biggest fear?
13.) Biggest fantasy?
14.) Quirks in bed?
15.) Bad habits?
16.) Biggest regret?
17.) Best kept secrets?
18.) Last thought?
19.) Worst sexual/romantic experience?
20.) Biggest insecurity?
If your going to suggest people, I assume you know who I play; past, present and future XD
I promise, an entry with more content about jobbage and school soon. But I end with OMG JOB AND SCHOOL AND NO LONGER SITTING ON MY ASS DOING NOTHING. Which I'm going to now I know it. Dammit...
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[03 Mar 2009|06:24pm] |
Well...that's certainly a record turn around for a day.
BECAUSE GUESS WHO GOT A PART-TIME JOB TODAY!!?!?!!?
Disney called. I will be working Outdoor Foods (or more small food shops really, not carts THANK GOD) three days a week at the Magic Kingdom around my school schedule. I go for paperwork Thursday and hopefully start basic training next Tuesday.
The recruiter guy was super excited. He got to hire like 9 people today for the first time in forever. It's nice to see those guys excited since that means good things for ALOT of people.
Finally...things are starting to look good. And I really hope I didn't just jinx myself >_>
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[03 Mar 2009|02:14pm] |
I thought yesterday was bad...
So after two hours of sleep, I work up before the sun to drive out for my first day of grooming school. About the only thing I can think of to say about it right now is that it will be /in/teresting. Of course I was bone tired but I still went to the gym afterwards and kicked my own ass harder then usual. I blame the stress and no sleep.
And of course, last night I could only sleep in about 4 hour increments and when I did wake up, I was sweating horribly while still being freezing cold. No temperature thank god but gross all the same. Joy.
Today I feel like ass and have spent most of it on the couch. My first plush I made with intention to sell has all kinds of problems with it that aren't helping no matter how I try to fix them. And I'm now also depressed about all the traveling I will now /not/ be doing, while everyone else will. Lonely? Just a bit.
This week can fucking suck it and it's only Tuesday.
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[21 Feb 2009|12:09am] |
So, here's my plan after talking to people and internet research and quite a bit of wine to finally be okay with this.
While I'm not going to stop job hunting, I'm going to seriously research grooming schools. I'm going to look into getting state grants to hopefully pay for the maximum 9,000 tuition, which is nothing after Virginia Tech. My family has lots of self-employed business experience being that my dad works for a company my grandmother created and my mother and uncle now own. All goes well? By next new year, I will own my own grooming business.
This is what I'm good at. I play with puppies. I don't really consider it work so it will be something I will be happy doing. If I get grants, I will have the remainder of my college fund to use as start up cash. If I can go to dog shows and network and just in general get into that world, I could make quite a large amount of money since apparently Florida is one of the hubs of the dog show world.
I. Can. Do. This.
Even if I do randomly get a job and I have to put this on hold for a bit to earn money, having a plan like this that is plausible at least gives me hope. Which is something I haven't had since December. So I'm going to take what I can get.
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[20 Feb 2009|04:18pm] |
I'm looking through Etsy as I contemplate opening a shop on it to maybe get some sort of income. Even if it's just a little here and there, that's something at this point. And I need something to do with my hands while my studio is in flux and ponies are packed away so might as well get something out of it. Plus I have pictures from Paris that might be considered print worthy and stuff I could do with paint. Of course, I'm waffling if I should even bother because is my stuff even good enough to sell? Blargh.
The problem with this is I keep finding things I want! Like this, made by a former pony person and is SO MUCH WANT. And this! Aren't these guys cute? Or one of these from the same person. And this but then I'd love anything out of her store.
In other news, I'm looking at grooming schools. Most at at least an hour away and would take the rest of my savings to complete. The good thing is most of the schools include classes on starting your own business which I think is what I would do. I have a nice brick patio I could easily convert into a work space.
And I have a tour at The Art Institute in Tampa on Monday to look at the pastry school. We'll see how that compares price and class wise.
I could be an artist in felt, fur and/or food. This amuses me.
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[19 Feb 2009|10:27am] |
Disney is cutting jobs.
I'm really not in a good place right now.
EDIT: Did a massive job hunt and applied for more jobs. Applying for an Elephant Internship and have requested information from a Grooming program and a culinary school. We shall see.
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[17 Feb 2009|12:29am] |
So I had all this time last week since I didn't have a working computer. You'd think I'd use it to finish unpacking or something.
Nope.
I made these guys. Meet Blackie and Marshmellow. Two 9in tall felt plush chess pieces.
I really need to get my pony stuff unpacked >_>
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